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10 February 2008

Hai.. (sigh**)
Its been rather long since I last blog-ged.
Ever since I had started my ambition in blogging, it has always given me great opportunities to voice out my inner feelings and thoughts. I was able to share the woes I once had. And I had them written right here, all of it right in my blog. Not forgetting the little and occasional moments of happiness.
I agree..
I was able to get myself involved in blogging then. Expressing my every single senses, thoughts & feelings, memories and been creative in my use of words.
But for now, I was afraid..
I was so afraid that I am slowly losing out.
Losing out the faith I had in composing the entries and I Fear.
I never knew that facing my 'senses, thoughts & feelings and memories' could be as fearsome.
For these period where I'm gone, I made a struggle with my inner emotions. And those explains why am I not having any entries in my blogs till today.
Or was I giving myself an excuse that I was just simply lazy... I have no actual answer.

I felt so tired. So tired that I have been asking myself if I had overworked my mind and soul. I eventually faced some problems in prioritising my life. I was mentally and physically distressed.
I was under so much stress with work that made my life went unorganised, imbalanced and totally disrupted. So much that I hadn't have the time to think for myself and some other things that needed and worth my attention.

I thought I should grow strong in my dignity and be even more determined to carry on to overcome my problems.
No... Its no use. Its not possible. I'm utterly lacking in self-esteem.
I don't even want to think.
I just want a personal space and be alone.

3:06 AM